Let Down Your Hair.

Singing my lonely song

I had been looking out for so long

I knew the sky in all weathers

I had seen it from above a Tower Tall

I saw the sunlight but could not bask in it

Though could not drench in it,

I touched the rain from my window small.

The Bellflowers blue and roses red

Pansies pink and purple-hearts rare

Periwinkles, primrose and violets

Lilies and forget-me-nots fair

I picked them one after the other

and braided them all in my golden hair

And dropped them down for Mother Gothel

To climb up like a stair

And in all my time spare

I wished and wished and wished

To be there somewhere

Where I could touch the grass, feel the breeze

And smell the ocean air.

But when I saw you I realized

That of all that I wished I never knew,

 That you were what the heart desired

And only you, who knew?

Were all my dreams come true.

You rode into my life

Like a knight in shining armor

Only that you were a thief

Of my Tiara and more

With all your gutsy glamour

Me thou didst enamor

And slowly the floating lights

Were only a beginning

To all those starry nights

I dreamt of, to be with you

Eugene, Mon Amour.

My Prince charming

You made me a princess

Worthy of tiara and trail

And put the old sorceress

To color deathly pale

Your love set me free

To fly, to run, to sail

I am Rapunzel, and this is my Fairytale.

Between Us

I am wondering what to do next in the day

When your face comes my way

And I start wondering where to go to

Because nothing else makes sense

Where else to start from

When You make all the difference

I wonder where I began and when it all took form

This life that has its roots from you.

When I looked at you the first time I don’t remember

But I carry our black and white photographs

Of when I was three.

A pram, a peach frock, a blue jumper and a dandelion

Sunshine and downpour

When you were four.

And now you tower tall and loom over me

And we have few words to share

But when you hug me I can see

That I am still three

Around you.

 It had started too weird

But bad then kept at bay

Missed calls throughout the day

Coffee shops here and there

and lots of cups of tea.

Pouring vibes all over the sheets

Literature to drink and eat

And pray.

You made time stay.

You opened a new world for me

Of pen, paper and prose

Unread stories took shape

And danced in front of me

The muse wanted attention,

I merely supplied.

No matter how much I tried

You kept me spellbound.

I met you through the world

It seemed like a preplanned scheme

It wanted me to fall

To feel and to fly

Free as a feather.

It was like whirlwind

So I closed my eyes

and let it swipe me off my feet

Whenever our eyes did meet

we smiled.

Silence sang between us

as songs that made me sway

The songs I strew on paper

And folded and posted to you

Along with my heart

For a couple of chocolates, a shoulder

A cigarette,

and unconditional Love.

Endless phone calls and conversations

And the billet duos meant for no one

Became yours.

Tender loving care poured and overflew

In mutual consent

My expressions found you and drowned themselves in paper

That I sew word by word, gift wrapped.

Every feeling that I felt when with you

I beaded into a string

and dedicated to you.

You are still a mystery

I unravel everyday

And we have a history

I wish I could chase away

But we have our new beginnings

Lit in broad sunshine

An endless green land

Where we stroll

Hand in hand.

Kindness and gratitude

Measured in heaps

Topped with the cherry

Of how I feel merry

When we are talking

Words flow and I listen

To you unquestioningly

My eyes are you

When you lead me through

I follow simply.

I never say no

I know it’s the right way to go.

Faith is you and me

Woven together

With friendship, joy and concern

Freshly cut and arranged

In a bouquet of flowers.

You know-it-all

You shine through

You smile your smile

The smile of manifold secrets

And zillions of years later

You will still know me inside out

Like I know you

With no camouflage

Wrong hues and color

We are painted black and white

Before each other

My heart I will bare

To others with care

But before you I will dare

To come as I am.

No Matter What

 

I am all out of love
I don’t want this life painful and lonely
I don’t want to be here
Take me away from here somewhere
I don’t want to live this life
Secluded and shady refuge I ask for
Away from illumination
Complex combination
I don’t want to be an angel
And I can’t be your kin
Ashes fall from my belongings
And I rub it through the skin
Water cannot wipe the stains
And fire cannot warm the chill inside me
Wind will change its course for sure
but things won’t change for me

No matter what I do
No matter where I go
My memories follow me
but my shadow let me go

no matter what I do
things won’t change for me
they are not meant to be
these tears and these pangs
of loneliness and pain
will come every time
will come over again
though I close my eyes
trying to ease the pain
it doesn’t work for me
it comes over again
I can’t hide it anymore
Inside my clothes
It seeps out and oozes to the surface
It won’t stop hurting
I should freeze my breathe, maybe
But things still won’t change for me

No matter what I do
I will live like a memory
In lives of other people
But none of my own story
To tell myself and laugh for me
Only anguish and hurt
Running inside me
No blood no life
No love in these veins
Only ashes and clothes
Also water stains
Trying to catch on to the transitory
I have lost myself in time
Not know I it’s the knell
Or the rusty bells chime
I will ring it for me
But things won’t change for me

No matter what I do
No matter where I go
My memories follow me
But my shadow lets me go

Empty cups of coffee.

I am seeing you after so long

Over a cup of coffee

And they are playing our song

It’s so hard for both of us

We nowhere no more belong

Togetherness means a different story now

Everything has changed and how

We seldom look in the eye

Guess we’ll never have a goodbye

Old habits and new behavior

We do not look the same

There has been no savior

Time has played its game.

But we can still smile

Move along for a while

Even if we do not belong

And almost all went wrong

But we can still find little joys

And the silence between us also has a voice

But the song at the back fills up the place

We will know each other

Beyond Time and Space.