Diary

I miss you a lot. Nights are the hardest. You're here and its so hard to let go. I cant get over this feeling of loneliness that wraps around me like a cold blanket, sending shivers down my body, all night long. I cant get over how I'm losing you, with every passing day, because clearly all is not lost till this heart stops and starts.

You invade my mind, like only you do, and you are the emptiness in my chest, just like you were the warm fuzzy feeling inside. And now tears flow incessantly and you cannot make them stop, even though you could tickle me from far far away which no one else ever could.

I'm in love, and it is hurting so much, I wish I could stop feeling, if only for a minute. I can't sleep because I'm afraid, not about what I'll dream of, for the content of that is pre-decided, but because eventually I'll be waking up and realising it were a dream.

I try, and try, to go back and do things right, but I end up just the same, at the very same place. I am sweating. I've never been so scared in my life. Never this much.